Family, is everything.
Sep. 7th, 2024 12:57 amI make my way to the town square, and I see him. He stands unmoving like a stone statute, blade in one hand, the lifeless body of a woman in the other. Someone I knew. My hand reflexively rises to my now wide open mouth as I gasp in shock.
Fae... No...
His grip loosens and the lifeless corpse of one of my best friends slams in to the cobblestone, painting it crimson read in a sea of blood. The very picture of death itself turns to face me, his eyes locking on to mine. The flames casting long flickering shadows against the face of someone I loved. The memory of our childhood, the bond we shared, his once fervent desire to protect me, is distant now. I look up from Fae's lifeless body and fix my gaze on him, and I take my stance.
"Still alive?" his voice is calm, "Little sister..." he asks, as he begins taking lazy steps towards me.
I snarl, all my rage, my pain, lashes out at him, "No! Don't call me that!"
He raises a hand to his chest, as he stops his glacial advance, "Amara, sweetie, I'm hurt." The fake smile on his face is a cold and twisted mockery of my once beloved brother. I don't know who this is, this monster, this lunatic, but my Kael is dead and gone. "You don't have to die here you know" he motions with a light bow, a hand gesturing towards one of the nearby roads. "You can just, go."
I grit my teeth with such fury my whole face aches. I reposition the grip on my sword even though my arms feel like lead. My whole body trembles from head to toe. "You always, always, thought you were above us all, Kael."
"Above you?!" his expression tightens, a flicker of frustration breaking through his calm facade. "I am trying to save them Amara!" he says, motioning in wide arcs to the burning town that surrounds us. "I am trying to save all of us! You and your bloody resistance will destroy everything!" he snaps and I recoil, fighting back tears. "Have you seen what has been done to the other towns that chose to follow you in to open rebellion against the King?"
I inhale and exhale deeply, looking my brother in the eye, "You think this, is saving them? Look around brother! You're burning our home to the ground! You are murdering our people!"
Kael's jaw tightens, his lips forming a thin line as his knuckles grow white from the grip he has on his blade. "Sacrifices, little sister, sacrifices" he steps forward towards me again, "This resistance ends here and now, and the price we pay is our home, to save the homes and lives of countless more."
Those words hit me like a punch to the gut. It's always been this way with him, so bloody certain, so gods damn sure he knows what's best.
"We, I, would rather die free than live under the yoke of a tyrant!" I scream it, my defiance, my pain, my everything. I take a step forward in response, "You sold us out. You sold me out."
Kael's face flickers with an emotion, regret, I think. It's gone as quickly as it came, replaced by the cold and unyielding resolve I've come to hate. "I did what I had to," he says, his voice is laced with pain. "Your gods damned cause will ruin us! Your little rebellion is reckless Amara. You surge headlong in to this without a care for what your actions do to the rest of the country." He pauses for a moment and for the first time in my life, I see hate, pure hate, in my brothers eyes and it breaks me. That hate, is meant for me.
I shake my head, the tears flying away from my face sparkle like stars in the night sky. "No! You don't believe that! You can't!"
He does though, I see it in his eyes, this twisted conviction that's taken hold of him. He's utterly convinced himself that betraying our people, betraying me, is the only way to save us. To stop this war, save lives and return everything to the status quo. He's willing to sell us back in to tyranny and I will never forgive him for it.
Our swords meet in a blinding clash of steel that rings through out the burning streets. I don't now how I blocked it, I barely saw it coming. The force of his attack sends me reeling backwards, stumbling, but I catch myself. My brothers attacks are relentless, his continued strikes are precise, measured. It tells me all I need to know, this isn't anger, it's purpose.
"You always let your heart lead you Amara, but hearts do not win wars."
I snarl, pushing back against him as every single muscle in my body screams in a choir of protest. "Your mind is leading you to destroy everything we've ever loved!"
We lock eyes, and for a single fleeting moment, it's like time crawls to a halt. I can see the boy he used to be, the one who stood by my side, who laughed with me, whose sworn he'd always protect me. The tears streaming down my eyes mingle with the blood of the wounds I took to get to him. My brother, is gone. The shell that stands before me is willing to burn everything to the ground in the name of some demented version of, peace.
"I'm not going to let you do this" I whimper, my voice breaking.
Kael's expression hardens, "Then die with the rest of your cause."
He lunges at me his blade cutting a wide arc through the air. I dodge, but I'm not fast enough. The blade grazes my side, cutting through my armor and digging in to my skin. I bite back a scream as I fall to one knee on the cobblestone. Blood pours from the wound as I move my hand to cover it, looking up at my brother as he looms over me.
"You're not strong enough little sister," he says, his sword raised for the killing blow. "You never were."
His words cut me deeper than his blade ever could. My brother, the one who once fought beside me, now stands ready to murder me. The weight of this, the truth of it, breaks me.
I wont let it end like this, not here, not like this. I wont die surrounded by the ashen remains of my home.
With a roar, I surge up, swinging my sword towards his legs. My brother's fast, but it's his turn to not be fast enough. My blade finds purchase and slices through his thigh sending him stumbling back crashing in to a pile of nearby ruble, still on his feet. I press forward with my next attack, every single movement sends pain thundering through out my whole body.
"You think I'm weak?" I growl, slamming my sword in to his again, and again, and again. My strikes are wild and desperate. "You think I'd just lay down and die for you brother?"
Kael grunts with each impact, barley managing to block my raging flurry of blows. His movements become more erratic and I see his calm is shattered.
Good. Let him feel it. Feel the full weight of his actions.
"I'm trying to save us!" he shouts, his voice raw as he swings wildly at me. "I'm trying to save you!"
I block the strike, our swords lock together, our faces now inches apart. "I don't need saving!" I scream. "I needed, you! I needed, my brother!"
With a final rage filled scream and burst of all the strength I have left in me, I twist my blade, obliterating his remaining defense. It plunges in to his chest, he chokes, coughs and spits up blood. My eyes go wide as he stumbles backwards, his sword slowly slipping from his fingers as it falls to the ground with a clattering clang before he follows suit and crumbles to his knees. My sword still lodged in his mid section.
For a moment, we just stare at each other, both of us breathing heavily. His eyes meet mine, as the fires around us continue to rage. He forms a small smile on his mouth as his lifeblood begins to leave him. "I wasn't going to kill you, little sister..." his voice is barely audible over the roaring flames. I step forward and tears blur my vision as I pull my sword free of his body tossing it aside, falling to my knees to be with my brother.
He falls forward and and I catch him, cradling his body in my arms as the life drains from him. "I know..."
"I love you, little sister..."
"I love you too.. big brother.."
My heart breaks with each final breath he takes, before the last one escapes him and my soul shatters. We were supposed to protect each other, now I'm holding on to the lifeless body of my brother as the world burns down around us.
Chapter 3: The acolyte.
A Hades Calculus Fan Fiction (Part of the Gunmetal Olympus Series)
Written by: Ciara RayneCloud
Gunmetal Olympus and Hades Calculus are the sole property of Benjanun Sriduangkaew and Devi Lacroix. All rights reserved to the original authors. Characters and Places used in this work of Fan Fiction are solely the property of their creators. Please support the official work here: Hades Calculus
This story takes place near the end of the first book and continues after it!
There are spoilers ahead!
Characters present through out the story,
Ares, Lord of War
Hippolyta, Champion of War, Pilot of xer Eidolon, Penthesilea
Mada, Acolyte of Hades, Lord of the Machine Dead.
Hades, Lord of the Underworld, Lord of the Machine Dead
The warmth of the near midday sun on my face is something I take time to revel in. I close my eyes and let it wash over me for several moments, my own little worship and thanks to the Lord Dionysus I would not be standing here to do this were it not for her Paralos. I exhale deeply and zip up my riding suit, ensuring my home is locked up fully, not that I need to worry about such things in Elysium, none would dare, but it's habit. I like to ensure my space is my own when I can.
One last check over as I put my glasses on, deep obsidian black mirror shades. I prefer this to a riding helmet on a day like today, it's cool enough and the breeze is wonderful against what skin I have bared. I Straddle my bike raising the kickstand and letting it rest under me. One more deep inhale and exhale as I lean backwards. The sun and the breeze bring a light tear to my eyes as I look up at the clouds, "The rains have ceased my love, and we have been blessed by another beautiful day. But you are not here to see it..." I lean forward again grabbing the throttle and steeling myself for the day ahead. I hope my love of riding, the renewed healing that is beginning to build up in me sparked on by my Lords words, will be enough to hold me through whatever may come.
I expect my ride to the nearest Temple of Hades to be an eventful one, Herakles and I were the /Celebrity Couple/ after all. The placing of ey and I both on that pedestal was always something I distasted. I understand it though, I am seen as a beacon of hope for all the citizens, something they could all aspire to and dream of becoming. As was my wife...
It shocks me somewhat, even though it shouldn't, that the truth is quite the opposite of what I expected. The Champion of War out on her cerulean and obsidian colored motorcycle, clad in a matching body suit and wearing a jacket with the symbol of her lord emblazoned upon it, does draw eyes. Things are different though, the trappings of my pedestal have changed, drastically. I should have expected this, to see the wide births, the gentle waves, the bows, the tears, the flowers and wreaths thrown at my passing.
They are all mourning my wife with me, and showing it to me. None of these people have seen or heard from their beloved Champion of War since the battle and no doubt this is why Ares beseeches me to go out.
Ares was right. I exhale and adjust my glasses, giving some of the citizens light waves as I ride by. Some of them tear up more, others smile and show some small measure of joy at my acknowledgement.
I need this, and it reminds me that I love these people, deeply and truly. This is my duty, the people need me, they need to /see/ me. They have already seen the destruction of a banner class Eidolon and the fall of a beloved champion at the hands of a Colossi of unimageable power. My presence brings them hope and I am all the more gladdened for it.
I don't remember the last time I visited one of Lord Hade's temples, or any of the other temples for that matter. I've always offered up my prayer's in my own ways to the gods, and this, this is a new experience for me. I let out another deep exhale as I park my bike, leaning back to take my glasses off and set them in my jacket. I take a few moments to give the temple a good solid look over as I try to steel myself before dismounting. Once on my feet I begin my trek up the stairs and towards the temple entrance noticing the hushed whispers and shocked eyes that follow my movements. I am given a wide berth while some offer their condolences, "We're so very sorry for your loss Lady Hippolyta" one young woman says, trying to force a smile.
"Thank you."
That thank you and a fake smile are all I have to give her in return for her bravery and kindness in bothering to engage with me at all. I would offer more if I had it, but for now, I have to move forward for me.
***
My boots echo throughout the main hall of the temple of the Lord of The Machine dead, footfalls that signal the Champion of War has entered, it is an auspicious occasion I imagine. They're not used to having me here after all, and obviously so. As is evidenced by an older woman rushing to greet me, stopping me in my tracks as several other young acolytes shyly hide near pillars. One of them stands out to me as this senior priestess introduces herself, she says her name is Daphne.
"My lady, it is such an honor to greet you in the temple of our Lord Hades" the words she speaks raise the hair on the back of my neck, she perturbs me. It's now what she says, but how she says it. The tone in her voice betrays something to me as I take my eyes off the young woman near by that has been recalled in memory. This one though, this Daphne, fancies herself powerful and enjoys holding it over others. I can feel it, and it is something I thought we had long since eradicated in Elysium, but these are troubling times indeed.
I turn to face this Daphne front on, locking my eyes with her. "Thank you for the welcome Priestess Daphne, I have come to seek aide in and counsel in my time of need."
I turn to face the other woman whose standing near by. I’ve seen her before. briefly, when Persephone and I were out shopping. I remember it now, spotting her with another young woman their hands locked together, standing awkwardly on the street as we passed by. She was hard not to notice, not with that fiery red hair. There was a brief, fleeting moment when our eyes met. She looked up, and I caught a glimpse of something fragile in her—a sincerity that seemed almost out of place amid the bustling crowd. I dismissed her out of hand at the time, preoccupied with our own concerns, but now that moment feels more significant.
"Oh, just so My Lady" a slight pause as Daphne turns to see where my gaze has wandered off to. No doubt very obviously noticing I'm not maintaining eye contact with her anymore. "Perhaps I can..."
"I wish to be tended to by her," I say, pointing to the sunlight haired acolyte with a single outstretched finger. I have no desire to play any of the ritual games.
The head priestess’s eyes narrow with a flicker of jealousy, her mouth twisting into a tight, disapproving line. I knew it, she, my instincts were correct. She fancies herself a woman of power, and I decide in that moment that I will dissuade her of that notion. "Mada?" she asks, her voice laced with disbelief. "She's just a novice, inexperienced in matters of aide and counsel my Lady."
My voice hardens, edged with the sharpness of my own despair and honed with my annoyance, "That is precisely why I ask for her. Grief is raw and untamed. It does not need experience; it needs understanding. She will do."
The head priestess’s expression darkens further, her eyes flashing with irritation. "Perhaps one of the more senior priestesses—"
I cut her off, frustration lacing my tone, "No. I want her. I do not need formality or distance. I need someone who isn't accustomed to easing the pain of others with the insults of empty words."
The head priestess’s face flushes with indignation, her pride clearly wounded. I have succeeded for the moment, but I imagine I may have caused some grief in a desire to seek out support for my own. Daphne waves Mada over with a sharp, dismissive motion, the sight of it makes me grit my teeth with anger. The young acolyte’s eyes widen with surprise and uncertainty as her name is called, her hands are trembling. Another sight I find reason to glower at Daphne over, and as is my desire, that glower is noticed, it unnerves her.
"Muh.. me?" Mada's words are stammered out as she points a finger at her own sternum. I give her a longer more decerning once over. She's taller than me, and just as pretty, that sun touched autumnal hair of hers sets quite a paradoxical dichotomy with the rest of this young woman's personality. I am fearful she has not been treated well, and I make the decision in this moment that I will remove her from this place. We'll go somewhere else and she can be the stranger I need, the help I need, someone I can sense with every fiber of my being is truly kind, and full of compassion.
"Yes, Mada, for gods sakes hurry up Child!" Daphne snaps, startling Mada causing her to shuffle over rapidly. She's trembling more now than before and I have decided I have had enough of this. I may have misjudged this Daphne, but this, this treatment will not do and Mada is well within arms reach now. This closely, I can see it in her eyes. I can feel it.
She needs me just as much as I need her. I have made the right call.
My gaze returns to being affixed upon Daphne, "I am taking her out, with me." I am not in the mood to make requests, it has been soured to such a point I make this statement of fact, one that Daphne seems incredibly perturbed by. The look on her face is something I find golden, and I revel in it drawing a grin on my lips in reply to the look of complete disbelief she gives me.
"You're what?" she bleats out like a loud speaker to all with in hearing range. Startling multiple temple goers, and acolytes alike. "That is highly-"
I step forward, raising my finger and placing it on her lips to silence her, if my eyes were lasers I would burn the soul out of her. "Don't" I say, the rage in my eyes and the venom laced in my voice should be clear as crystal even to the densest among us in Elysium. "Just, don't." I reach out to grab Mada's hand with my other, it's good that she shuffled so closely when she was called over.
"I have seen how you treat this girl Daphne, and I will not abide it. I am taking her with me, to provide me with counsel and I will return her to you when I am good and gods damn ready. If you have a complaint, lodge it with Lord Hades or Lord Ares." I walk off dragging Mada in tow, she's utterly shocked by what just happened. I half expect her to resist, to plead with me, but she doesn't. She is no doubt entirely overwhelmed by what just transpired. Her hand still in mine as I storm off.
Good. Mada will know what kindness is, and I'll have someone truly detached to confide in and trust with all of my pain. Perhaps we'll grow to become friends and perhaps, I will have a chance to put this Daphne in her place and educate her properly on how to treat her wards.
With this whole scene I've made all but finished, I make my way for the temple entrance, my startled acolyte and counsel in tow. I imagine it all the more hilarious to on lookers that Mada is taller than I am, no doubt we cut quite the picture. Me, the little ball of fury dragging behind me this nervous mess of young woman.
I stop for a moment, Mada is still incredibly flustered by the looks, she has yet to protest any of this. I shoot her a smile, one of the only truly warm smiles anyone has gotten from me in days, before I tilt my head back to Daphne, "My lord is in Occultation however, so I imagine your complaints will take some time to reach xer. I imagine Lord Hades is as well, all the best of luck to you!"
Before Daphne can protest further, I place my hand on the doorway and we depart. Anyone that could see my face now would see me grinning from ear to ear, I am proud of myself. Maybe, that will change though, when Lord Hades hears I insulted one of her most senior's integrity and stole an acolyte from her Temple.
Well, no matter, I've always wanted to meet the Lord of the Machine Dead more personally anyway. This will be as good a reason as any.
Man Made Mothers: Prologue Beta
Aug. 26th, 2024 11:54 amThe following is a Prologue for beta reading for my series tentatively named, "Man Made Mothers"
Man Made Mothers
Prologue Test
It’s cold, the fear part of the fight or flight response that runs roughshod throughout my body, glacially so. Colder than the rain saturated pavement that my body impacts. The pain of the collision with the ground sends vibrating shockwaves of sheer agony throughout my entire being. I let out a howling scream of pain. The man whose back I had leapt on in a sheer act of defiance and utter stupidity, whose bloody mess of an ear I had just bitten off and spat out, lay on top of me.
No doubt he's proud of himself for using his entire weight to slam me into the ground. I imagine he hopes that this will take me out of the fight, allowing him and his fellow lap dogs the opportunity to take what they came here for. My wife. What they didn't account for is that my beloved Enri was former Sentinel CorpSec special operations, and over the course of the last few moments of this blood soaked ambush, she'd already felled two of the four of these bastards and was locked in combat with the third. For my part, I had at least managed to pull this wretches attention away from her. Give her some space.
Pride, arrogance or hubris makes men like this think they've won against women like me all the time. I imagine he thinks he has me beaten, my blood soaked teeth gritting through levels of pain I’ve never felt before in my life. He's wrong, they always are, I'm not a fighter but love can make miracles happen. I wrap my legs around his midsection and squeeze with everything I have. I wrap my arms around his neck, locking my fingers like Enri taught me. I am the hangman's gallows of his death and I will choke the life out of him or die trying. I have to win this for the woman carrying my child, she needs me to win this.
The sudden realization of the abject failure of his arrogance slams in to him as I give my all to crushing his throat. He thrashes about on the ground, legs kicking wildly and arms lashing out hands clawing at my face. I do not let go though, that icy cold terror has melted into unbridled rage and sheer fury. I feel it, burning in my chest, a wellspring of power and strength I did not know I had.
“Just five pounds of pressure is all it takes love”
I hear my wife’s words echoing in my mind, a memory of the first day she taught me to shoot a gun. The gun that I notice is still resting in its holster as I thrash about on the ground with this man. If I can reach it and tug it loose, I can end this. I just have to use one arm to reach it, just the one. I use my left hand to claw at his larynx, digging my fingers in to his flesh. My right moves out for the weapon and I find purchase. I don't know how, but I manage to free the weapon and plant the barrel of it snuggly against his midsection.
Just five pounds of pressure is all it takes love.
I pull the trigger, the crack of super sonic metal leaving the barrel would no doubt echo throughout this space, if it were not muffled by his flesh. One. Two. Three. Each muffled boom signaling another bullet has torn through his body. Each pull of the trigger gives me the reaction I want. I feel his body convulse and spasm and hear him gurgle and spit up blood as he lets out surprised yelps of pain. Four. One last round for good measure and I feel it, I feel his body fall limp and lifeless. I feel the warmth of blood spilling out from the mortal wounds I just inflicted and on to the rain soaked pavement.
Dropping the weapon to the ground and finding what little strength I have left in me. I slowly force this mountain of a man off of me. His corpse rolling face first in to the ground.
"Enjoy, hell, you bastard.." I wrathfully quip, spitting blood out as one last act of defiance against my attacker.
I lay there for a moment letting the drops of that cold rain fall against my face. I give myself a few slight seconds to gasp for air, to catch my breath, to let the adrenaline high come down, before rolling over on to my stomach and pushing myself up. I feel the lightning bolts scatter throughout my body, incredible pain, but I push through it. I have to push through it. I stumble to my fight to find that Enri has won, all three of the rest of our attackers are slain and cast about the space. I feel the tears well up in my eyes, I'm all but useless next to her, it took everything I had to take down one and she took down three.
I shake my head. No, don't do that to yourself Anna, your wife loves you, you have value. You won, you protected her and your child.
Once I've managed to come to my senses, I run to Enri and kneel down gently placing my hand on her bloody and beaten face and my other on her stomach. "Baby, baby, come on wake up." She's barely holding on to consciousness and the glacial cold of fear washes over me again until she slowly opens her eyes and forces a smile.
"You got one love, proud of you..." the smirk she gives me is infectious, one of the many reasons I fell in love with her. She's a smartass, even at the worst of times, but she's MY smartass.
"You big idiot, you had me horrified.." I reply, tears now streaming down my face, the floodgates are open. "Come on love, we have to get on our feet and get moving, they'll send more soon." I use what strength I have left to help my love to her feet. "I remembered by the way."
"Remember what?" Enri asks.
"Five pounds of pressure" I retort, a big grin on my face, still flushed thanks in part to the tears.
"Good, I'm proud of you." she adds and I'm proud of myself as well.
That pride will have to wait though, we're alone in this hate and bigotry filled world and corporate greed wants what I've helped to make happen. The first successful pregnancy in a trans woman in human history. At the hands of another trans woman no less, and our child is biologically ours. Some demand to know how I've made this happen. Others want to destroy us as they label us unnatural abominations.
None of them will have us. None of them will have our joy. I will see to it.
The Road to Valour Part 1: Stone and Word
Dec. 4th, 2017 08:11 pmMelina comes into the library and goes to the catalog for a moment to see if she might locate something of interest, frowning a moment before looking up making a note in her journal. path takes her near Ciara and she regards the woman in some surprise "Hello. How"are you? How fares cuchilla?"
Ciara nods at Melina as she asks to be excused. She turns her gaze back to Carm slowly and hangs her head, exhaling deeply, "No, not all of them have and for that I can only ask forgiveness Your Highness. Though, I do hope that this one and the ones that follow can be brighter?" she asks of him as she raises her icy blues back to look at him, forming another smile on her face. "Oh, and, as Melina said, no need to apologize. This is a public place after all, and the palace, so it is we that would leave, at your command of course."
Carmichael licks his lip lightly, his frown remaining as he looks upon the rubbing. "I'm afraid that shadow-walking does not usually work to a word. There are a variety of means to travel through the various worlds, but none of them that I am aware of, function on a single word as a link. Most require some greater knowledge of where you are headed than that - or a mechanic. I have seen Mandrakes follow the path of a living creature, river people travel the waterways all across. I am sure there are means to do the same with other kinds of ....fluid motion..." he looks from the rubbing to her. "Have you presented this to the duchess of Chantris? She may have access to deeper areas of the library or insight into this language."
Ciara frowns as well, reaching out for the rubbing back. "There was, more, inside a book. I only brought this piece out of worry that it might be part of something important, or dangerous, I truly do not know. I could, return to Lyoneese and get the rest of the things that were in this book? Though, I do actually recall this.." she says, pointing at the stone itself, the picture of it above the rubbing of the word. "It's in Lyoneese, in southern Cuchlia near the ocean."
"Eeeh, I wouldn't go so far as to dub me wise, considering the amount of people that won't speak to me civilly or at all, these days," Carmichael replies in a quiet tone, nodding lightly and folding the rubbing back the way it was previously. He considers his attire, slides it into the fold of the snug jacket torso. He looks at her levelly once again afterwards, analytically in so far as he's gauging her mood and level of motivation. "Is there anything in particular with this language that you seek the key for? It would help if I were to glean a little more insight into what you hope to achieve with the study of it. I take it that the language is not local to Lyonesse? I assume as a Chantris, you would be able to decipher the majority of it and find etymological links that might be significant, even without access to your House. That much is in your blood."
Carmichael just gives her a very long look at the tongue bitten to hold things back. He nods to her, approving of the fact she didn't let it run off with her and flicks the tiniest of smiles with it. The rest though, he pays more diligent attention to, fierce eyes intent. "Do you know where the language originates? Golden circle? Beyond? Does it have links to any modern language?" he asks pertinently.
Ciara shakes her head no, "As far as I can tell, no, it doesn't originate from any known golden or silver circle shadow. Though it does seem to have some similarities to languages spoken in Lyoneese and Kitzeh. So, there could be something there."
"Those two are strange bedfellows, although I suppose kites did land all over the place," Carmichael muses, then nods with a soft sigh. "Well, I shall see if anything comes of this. I can contact you if I do uncover anything of significance, but failing that, I do wish you extensive luck with your quest, your Excellency."
Igraine watches the other woman flatly, "On the contrary. You should be glad you do not draw against me. You are not even near me in skill with a blade and it could easily end with your death or injury." There's a pause, "And it's Black Bitch of Lyonesse or Black Dame of Ascolat if you must. I have nothing but respect for Izett. She has always been kind to me. Even so I do not encourage anyone to believe her opinion of me nor Harold's. Regardless, unless Regent Gerard tells me I am not allowed here, you certainly have no right to do so."
Igraine turns to give Ciara her full attention. "I said my revenge gave me no satisfaction. I trained a lifetime for killing him and when I finally found him and my axe tasted his blood, I felt nothing but rage and disappointment. No satisfaction. My entire purpose was gone and it had solved nothing, changed nothing. Or so I thought. In truth it made things far worse for me."
Igraine nods, "You are under no obligation to believe me. I lie quite well when I choose to. However, I have nothing to be gained by lying to you at this moment. You are not important enough in my life to lie to, Countess. I killed him and it made me angrier than I had been before. Believe me or not. I have no need to convince you. Revenge made my life worse. At least before I could convince myself that once I had killed him, my pain would be over and I would find peace finally. After I killed him, I had to acknowledge I would never find the peace I thought his death would give me."
Igraine smiles coolly, "I'm not. I have never tried to manipulate you and I haven't tried to manipulate him since he found out who I really am. Enjoy your hatred. You will find in fuels you like nothing else. Never lose it." Then she too turns, finally making her way inside the embassy grounds.
Foundations...
May. 31st, 2017 01:48 amCiara finds a man that just might be capable of helping her upgrade Fortress Cuchlia and assist with the Mining Operation.
It's early afternoon, and Olumus, like many others, has stopped by for a bit of coffee. There's a pot in the center of the table, from which the big man refills his cup over and over again. Today, his focus is on what seems to be a future piece of jewelry. Using tools, he bends thin pieces of silver so they loop together into an elegant chain.
Broken hearts...
May. 29th, 2017 09:02 pm
The Embassy is quiet, this evening Harold is in the courtyard brushing his war horse Chessy. The Grandmaster, draws the brush slowly over the large animals flank.
Ciara makes her way in to the Courtyard, the sounds of a great many soldiers following her as she does. There's quite a few of them outside the Embassy now, though they do not enter as she does, no, they stay outside. Ciara is here with a mission, a purpose, and shows her trademark determination. As she enters, she walks straight up to Harold and speaks his name, "Harold. I would request words with you" she asks of him, a slight pause as she looks around and then back to him. "In Private."
Harold lifts a brow, "Certainly." he nods and his attendants. "In Lyonesse, in public, it is polite to use titles...calling me by given name, thusly is very familiar, as you are not my wife or sister...Ser Harold would have been more proper...but that aside, how may I help you?"
The attendants depart allowing private conversation.
"I've not the time, or the patience, for tradition" replies Ciara plainly, standing firmly with her hands clasped at her stomach. "My using only your name, and forgoing your title, should speak to a great many things." She looks quite intense and and angry. "I am here, Ser Harold, as the Countess Cuchlia, to make an open and formal demand, and to state my intentions to you plainly, tradition can wait while lives are on the line. I have had many, many months, to think things over truly, and completely." She steps forward towards him again, "Will you hear my demands?" she asks. "Will you hear them and know that I do what I do for my people and for Lyonesse as a whole?"
Harold stops brushing his steed, and turns to face, "I am not your vassal, nor are you mine, I am not obliged to listen to any demands." he says very calmly, "as lives are on the line I will hear your request M'lady." he folds his arms across his broad chest. "I will decide the best course after you have said your peace."
"Very well Ser Harold.." replies Ciara plainly. "I can not now, or ever, or anymore tolerate your relationship with your wife. Igraine is a Tyrant, and a monster, and I will see her in chains, behind bars.." she pauses "or dead." The last part said with all deliberate force of intent behind it. "My county may be small, and insignificant to Amber, and to perhaps many others, but I will fight for every inch of all twelve hundred square miles and for every strand of hair on the thousands of lives that call it home. We are incapable of standing against Igraine, should her black Knights raid or should she choose to bring the force of Albion, Ascalot and Brentinor down upon us and I know that, but what hurts worse?" she pauses to look at the floor, exhale deeply and then look back up to Harold.
"Is that I respected you. I looked up to you. I saw in you the hope and the light of a nation. I even agreed with you when you said that Amber cared little for Lyonesse, but I can't help but wonder if Amber cares little for us because of YOUR actions and it pains me to see you continue to stand idle while Igraine keeps prepping to conquer more and more land" pause "and Ser Harold? I will never bow to you as King. Ever. You don't deserve that. You sleep with the enemy and call her wife as she plots to stab you in the back and kills hundreds. You sleep with her, warm and comfy in your bed, while she stands as a absolute enemy to everything you swore to me that you stood for. So today, I am here to say to you that Cuchlia counts itself no ally of Monsalvat, or your Knights, for as long as you continue to Call Igraine your wife."
"Now, as it stands, I am willing to be proven wrong, and to be shown that all of what I think is inaccurate and based on false information, and I will even beg your kindness and grace in asking for forgiveness, but if what I know to be true is right? That you do nothing and continue to protect her? Then I must make the decision that is best for my people."
Harold sighs, sadly he shakes his head, "From where did you get your information Countess?" he asks in a polite and formal tone, "You of course have some evidence that Her Majesty is massing troops for purpose of conquest?" he asks in another very polite tone. "If your information comes from an Ambrite princling, or perhaps a Solaris?" he shrugs, "you have been lied to, and are being used by." he says bluntly, "The Solaris family considers all the lands of Lyonesse to be theirs by right of birth...sadly their claim is no stronger than mine or your own...further Taran Solaris, my former squire committed treason against the Kingdom of Monsalvat, and broke the sacred vows of the Graal Knights, and was cast out." he draws a breath "further they swear fealty to House Chantris, who's Duchess is in league with Chaos...did they inform you of any of that?"
"You assume just as much as I do Grandmaster, much and more." Ciara's retaliation there, a point of fact statement that shows all manner of politeness she can muster. "I am here, entirely of my own accord. Not to mention Ser, I have cast out House Chantris and House Solaris from my lands and declared myself independent from their machinations and publicly so, to the chagrin of the Duchess Chantris who saw fit to make a statement of my Independence, and to send such statement to the other houses of Amber. However, I am capable of seeing the error of my ways, and recognizing my mistakes, and I also take responsibility for my actions fully and completely. With out their support, Cuchlia has suffered much, but yet, it now prospers and perhaps there is a means to an end and a way to mend broken bonds, but again, I stand firm in my statements."
"As to yours? What further proof do I need than the sacking and taking of Brentinor? That, as a note, I saw you do very little about to delay, or stop, though again I could be mistaken, but it's irelevant. Your WIFE, took the crown of a sovereign territory by force and even if you did anything? You did nothing of any worth or value to stop her from ransacking that land and I can't forgive that."
"As to your comments about Taran Solaris? Is questioning your marriage to someone who is KNOWN to be the leader of the Black Knights and someone who has truly and honestly succumbed to chaos treason? If standing up to you and your nonsense is treason, than I command him for having the strength of will and character to do so. As to House Chantris, if you have proof that the Duchess is in league with Chaos, than show me, and that will again justify my reasoning for leaving that house behind me."
"Besides that, I did all of that because of YOU!" she snaps, actually raising her voice for the first time during the conversation. "I swore of Chantris and Solaris, because of YOU! Because I saw the truth of what you taught me, what you showed me. I saw it! But I see now that your hypocrisy with your wife is well and truly your major flaw and weakness and it is a dagger in to my heart to see a man I looked up to, that I respected, that I REVERE!" yet again her voice is raised. "Stand by someone so, so completely horrible." She looks down to the floor and sighs, "She took my parents from me Grandmaster. She took and has taken, and destroyed many lives and I thought you, of all people, could see that she must needs be stopped by all costs. Seems, I was wrong.."
"Dear Lady, Do know I am the White Knight of Lyonesse, I faced horrors that would shrivel the souls of most." Harold remains calm, "Albion's conquest of Brentinor, was because Brentinor supported Taran Solaris, and a group from Amber in trying to over throw Igraine, by invading Albion...they lost, and Taran was killed. Further, Your Excellancy, I offered my protection to Brentinor, and they suggested I turn my order over to Ser Taran...Ser Taran was not fit to command an army, he was out of he depth trying to take on Igraine...I had managed to contain her...prior to those events..."
Harold paces "There is so much you do not know or understand...Black Knights, White Knights, Red Knights, Blue Knights...these were not individual men, they were whole orders of Knights...of all those orders only two still remain...The Graal Knights, or the White order and the Black Knights...If one order or the other prevails Lyonesse may well be lost forever...do you understand a need for balance?"
Ciara exhales and hangs her head to the floor, and at this point allows the drops of tears to fall from her face and hit the floor. She looks back up at him with tears in her eyes and red cheeks and simply says, "You are breaking my heart Ser Harold." She steps forward and pulls a dagger, hidden in her lower back, held in the sash about her waist, and hands it to him. "Take my life. Take it now and see me set free from having to look at a man that I revered, and to be forced to see him an Enemy. To be forced to no other course of action but to look him in the eye, and see him lost to delusion. Take this away from me, for no matter your justification, you allow an evil to prevail and go unpunished." She exhales again, deeply, "You simply containing her? It makes you just as much a monster and slave to delusion as she is and no reason you come up with Ser Harold, can justify you not doing your duty and ending her evil when you had the chance. So.." she holds the dagger up to him again.
Well Harold is on Lyonesse, he is used to Grand gestures. He takes the dagger, using his thumb to test the edge, "Might I ask you a question...before I end your life?" he asks in a now forced calm tone. "What give you the right to sit in judgement of a woman you barelyknow, what insight tells you she is beyond redemption?" he pulls off his tunic, his heavily muscled torso is criss crossed with scars, "Here" he points "Igraines sword." he lifts an arm showing a badly mended scar on his ribs, "an ax blow, also Igraine...and she has as many, or more from my own blade...do you really think we have not tried to end one another?"
"Nothing. Nothing gives me the right save my own desire to see justice done and to see my own vengeance acted on. Nothing save seeing Lyon rid of an absolute Evil that IS, beyond, redemption." When he pulls his tunic off, she looks at each scar and then looks up to him, and outright succumbs to her emotions. She stands there, balling her eyes out, but still standing. "Now I know you have, and you both failed, and perhaps on purpose." She pauses a moment to ready herself, fear in her eyes, because he actually took the dagger. "Though, now I know the truth. That you would take that dagger from me, and honestly seek to kill me, as I stand here unarmed, at your mercy and utterly heartbroken. You would kill me, and make excuses that you and Igraine both /Tried/ to end each other. If you choose to drive that dagger in to me, and kill me? You've made my point, truth."
"That you can, kill, an unarmed woman as she stands before you simply because she asked you to, but you can't kill an unarmed woman as she lays in your bed."
Harold shakes his head, and sets the dagger aside. "I do not brandish weapons lightly, and never for the sake of drama...I took the dagger so you would not harm yourself." he frowns more deeply, "you impune my honor." he says softly, "and it breaks my heart..." he pulls his tunic back on, "Good day your excellency, I have heard your /demands/ and I chose to let you believe what you will of me" he turns and again begins to groom his horse.
Ciara looks, utterly dumbstruck for sometime, before she bows and chooses not to take the dagger back. "In another life Grandmaster, I would have begged you to love me.." pause, sniffle, "and told you that my reverence for you had turned to love. I mean it truly when I say, that my heart is utterly broken." As she remains bowed, eyes to the floor, "As I said, if you prove me wrong, than only by your grace and kindness can I truly be forgiven for breaking yours. Be well grandmaster." She turns on heel and leaves the Embassy still in tears.
More plans of mice and women..
May. 29th, 2017 12:50 amBlueprints and deals...
May. 28th, 2017 08:50 pmThe best laid plans...
May. 11th, 2017 02:48 amIn this Scene, the Countess Ciara Chantris-Solaris of Cuchlia runs in to the Prince Marshall of Amber, Prince Carmichael.
This scene takes place on the Road to Amber, text based MUSH/RPG.
Of note, there's a walking cane leaning up beside the wall near the man. It's plain wood, with a knobbly top, the classic 'old hermit man' kind of cane that doubles as a head-bonking club for some. He's sitting a little stiffly also, right leg extended out in an unnaturally stiff manner. He glances up at the chime of the door and the call from Marty, searching out the figure at whom he gazes with a flutter of blinks, for a couple of seconds. Polite though, he inclines his head. "Your Excellency, lady Ciara."
Carmichael gestures with a palm, a sweeping hand toward Marty that is a tacit invite to get on with things. It's accompanied by a slight nod of the head also, the gesture translating to taking up his cup for a sip with it, getting a foam mustache for a moment, before it's lightly licked off. "The panini here are quite good, if you like sandwiches..." he offers.
Carmichael takes a glance at the menu, mentally translating the mons language, he indicates with a finger. "There's cheese, formaggio... that is... ham - prosciutto... and chicken - con pollo..." a pause "...usually with an aioli, that is a kind of herbed buttery oil. Montevalno's all about complimentary palate and a kind of rustic simplicity born out of artform." He expresses that with a call for a ciabatta himself, ordering the chicken. Settling back with his coffee he nods lightly. "It takes quite some time to get your feet doesn't it? And a good deal of realizing you're not living for yourself any more. There ought to be handbooks, they'd make a fortune with them."
Carmichael gestures thereafter to a seat at the table. There's not much room, the cafe is one that has a lot of small tables designed to create a closer environment, but certainly there's enough room for plates and coffee cups. "Quite," he thinks a moment, a faint frown creasing his brow. "I think I meant the level of devotion. It's something I relate to, in that I used to do much as you did before, fighting for a village or a small group of people, one problem at a time... the scale escalates and the little details can get lost in a bigger picture."
Carmichael looks at her critically at this for a moment, then takes out his notepad again, a pen with it and starts to doodle on it, where she can see. What he draws is balloons. But in them, he puts little impressions of cities, farmland, people as little stick figures. It's a good sketch but looks like an impressionist's view of a lot of cultures and such, if one looks at it aesthetically. "Imagine that these are all shadows..." he indicates the balloons. "Like Lyonesse, like Kitezh, like Boobanoog, which is a very strange place close to Sukho. They build floating cities, it's quite beautiful really, but odd." He then draws little arrows piercing the balloons on different spots, in the great balloon conglomerate. "What happens if you pierce a baloon too many times?"
Carmichael nods to her, with a slight smile that fades away a moment later. "All shadows are resilient to a few pierces. But there's a critical mass point, where it's been pierced too much - this can be by outside interference, too much trade on an unstable avenue of passage... several other factors also. A balloon contains nothing but air... but these balloons?" He indicates the cities, people, land, with the end of the pen. "What do you suppose happens when the one in the middle goes boom?"
Carmichael nods to her. "And when these go..." he indicates the ones around them, then out and out and out and out, to the next and the next balloon. "That's what I mean about a cascade domino effect. When one topples, depending on where it is... the others around it get all the explosion damage and go boom too, one after another." He exhales. "Thus, trying very hard to make sure that doesn't happen right now. We don't want this..." he indicates the page "...to happen. It's painful too, given that the place where the danger lies, is devastated. I can't help them all individually at the moment, I can only help them overall, to stop.... this." He indicates the page again.
Carmichael looks actually taken aback by this, his lips parting a moment as if to speak, then closing once again into a relaxed aspect, bowing his head to her solemnly. "It is not that I don't care. It never is," he says that very softly. "But rather, that the duties we have escalate in magnitude. The responsibility -you- carry, is no less important than mine. You cannot do all that I can do, but it is -no less- important. All that you are, all that you do, must mean as much to you as your heart can carry with it; but do not mistake that we do not care. We do. Well, I do. Avalon meant a great deal to my father, but we couldn't save it... saving Lyonesse requires that we know -what- must be saved. The cataclysms she faces, we are ill placed to stop, without the knowledge that -you- and your people must ultimately provide to us."
Carmichael exhales long and hard, pressing his lips together firmly. He listened though, throughout that impassioned speech. It looks for all the world like he's strategizing behind his eyes, but his face betrays very little otherwise. Eventually, after perhaps a minute of silent thinking, he takes up the note pad once again. "From what I've studied of Lyonesse, which is less than I could, but as you have gleaned a little of, I'm stretched thin in many aspects." He lifts a finger in caution, but accepts that there's a flaw in his learning there nevertheless "... the land and the people are closely tied together. The blood of Lyonesse and the land of Lyonesse are interlinked in legend, prophecy, piety, duty, responsibility and prowess. The orders of knighthood are very black and white, the power that they had overall, was magnificent. Something happened though, that sank the land -- the cataclysm is partly, I believe, tied to the fall of Avalon, but also to something inherent /in/ the people and the land that failed. The doom of the Fisher King, so to speak." He presses his lips together. "Finding the soul of your land and being that strength is vital to raising it from the water, but purity of spirit, desire and prosperity is tied to the blood of your kings and nobility. When they prosper, the land also prospers. The seas are haunted are they not? And what survives of Lyonesse sinking, was the highlands?"
Carmichael frowns at what he hears about the falling out and it brings about a blink, his hand raising to forestall a moment, indicating her with the fingerspread. "What happened, might I ask, that created such a falling out? Did you abuse a book perhaps?" the joke falls a bit flat, but perhaps he really thinks that would be a travesty to a Chantris. "Talia is a stickler for propriety and feminine power and can be very difficult to deal with but Ailith is usually quite level headed, if cool and blunt."
Ciara nods, and raises a hand to her mouth to stiffle a very obvious yawn. One that speaks volumes to her falling asleep almost where she stands. "Forgive me your highness, but I would continue this conversation another time? I find myself having a great deal of difficulty staying awake at the moment. If you will excuse me?" she asks with a smile on her face. "I will endevour to take all of your advice on and put it to use."
A reconciliation and a Plan...
May. 11th, 2017 01:33 amCiara Chantris-Solaris and Ailith Solaris of Chantris have finally managed to reconcile their differences. In this scene, Ciara shows Ailith her plans for the County of Cuchlia.
Ciara makes way to a large table in the center of the main entrance room of Fortress Cuchlia. A large map rests on the table, fully unfurled and showing the current known lands of Lyonesse. She paces about the map before finally leaning over the table and pointing at it. "Here" she says, before looking to Ailith. "What's left of our homeland."

Ailith nods. Studies the map and its scale thoughtfully, and picks up a little wooden piece that isn't on the map to place on the ocean, far to the south. "This is where I grew up," she says. "And where I work to restore what our House once lost. I suspect I will need to build shipyards to connect with anywhere else."
Ciara nods, "I see that, but you get ahead of me dear cousin.." she replies before pointing to the large swath of land that lays beyond a mountain. "My plan.." she says, as she taps on that area. "We blast through the mountain. A tunnel of sorts, perhaps with a trade station and halfway house. I intend, to beseech the princes of Amber yet once more, for a simple exchange. If, they would be willing to assist with transportation. I would take all the refugees of New Lyonesse and bring them home. I've already spoken with the Prince Marshall about this and he is intrigued, as that section of the city would return to the crown with a public statement of great thanks and adoration from me. With the refugees here, and the ability for us to claim this land, and with Harold and Izett at my side as my allies. We stand to rebuild the kingdom of Lthatch. With that, I would proclaim myself Queen and rightful heir to the throne, and with hopes, have an artifact from beneath the waves to justify and make valid my claim to the great king Brian's throne. With this, The rest of the lands here," and she taps to the east, "that once belonged to the Lthatch would rise once more from the waves and we would, have a strong and stable kingdom as a focal point for the continued expedition and attempts to rebuild lyonesse. As, it has come to my attention that we must needs do this alone. Lyoneese must prove itself no longer the vassal and a strong, and independent nation with much to offer and much to give."
Ailith frowns, studying the map. "New Lyonesse houses several thousand people," she says. "Where will you house them, and how would you feed them?"
"First, the Cuchlian Expansion and Reclamation Plan has been broken down in to multiple stages. Firstly, the continued creation of local food production and storage facilities. Then a move to exploit local resources that my daer friend Dirk choose to ignore. With these resources, we can continue our work on building up Cuchlia's industrial capacity, however small, to a point of self-sustaining ability. I'll move to conduct diplomacy and trade negations with the other shadows, perhaps offering up expeditionary and exploratory rights for a tax. With that, the third step is to continue to recruit and develop cuhclia's own self defense forces. Once this is done, I plan to reoffer land to the great houses. I had hoped to see such things as a new College, a Hospital, a Grand Library, and even a new Theater for music and the arts."
Ciara says, "Oh and yes, it is very acceptable."
"Here in lies the expected issue with Harold and Izett....my stage of open war with Igraine, with the intent to see her removed from her life..."
"Third, focusing on the local populaces overall happiness, along side building of trade with external shadows, as I said. This means a central market, and a new port as well as festivals."
"Next, defense in the bolstering of our Military forces."
"Finally, building up the services that I spoke of. A Hospital, a Theater, and Finally a Library and School."
Ailith nods. "All necessary and laudable steps," she says. "Where may I be of assistance?"
"It is generally not advised to truly treat Dirk and Melina as a pair, save with regard to how one speaks of the other," says Ailith. "Melina is aware of her husband's flaws. If she aids you, it is not a reflection on Dirk."
"Yes, but if I denounce Dirk and his inaction?" she asks plainly. "The man did next to nothing and the people suffered and he wants a title..." she adds, looking visibly upset.
"But still!" she adds, the desire to do some measure of good herself found in her. "If he did no good, and no harm, he still did nothing. Why should I award that?"
"Because he is vain," says Ailith simply. "And is happy to have a title without power. And he can walk the Pattern, as I can, and thus - provided one can get the man to focus, which I freely concede is a chore - he can provide you additional resources if he is happy with you."
"So, what you are suggesting is that I should use him, selfishly, for the betterment of Cuchlia and potentially Lyonesse?" Ciara asks, her facial features speaking volumes to how much thought is going through her mind. She is torn, between doing what she must for her people and her land and using someone, regardless of the reasons.
Ciara sighs audibly, a deep and long lasting exhale. "I see your point. Very well, I'll give Dirk what he wants as soon as I am able to Justify it to my people." Ciara rubs both of her hands gently upon her face, no doubt attempting to find some measure of calm after all of this discussion. She turns to Ailith finally and smiles warmly, "I believe we've spoken on all I wished to speak. I'd prefer you stay here in the Fortress for the night before you return to your ship." Ciara slowly pushes back from the table and stands up fully, "Give me that little request? I do not mean to insinuate that you are incapable, only that I'd personally feel better if you set out at first light instead of now."
Ailith nods slowly. "I would not underestimate the level of ...pestering...Dirk might require. He is resistant to any form of responsible action. Perhaps talk it over with him, before you decide." She bows. "I will be honored to remain a guest of your castle till the morning, Countess."
Ciara smiles warmly, "Oh, I know. I've every intention of playing my cards with him correctly, and very close to the chest.." she replies plainly as she takes a few steps forward and reaches out with both arms to wrap her arms gently around her cousin for a soft and warm hug. "Do you forgive me?" she asks, pulling back slowly and locking eyes with Ailith. "I am just, well, a bleeding heart. Seeing so many suffer, it pains me.." she adds, a small sigh escaping her lips again. "It has almost laid me low with real sickness."
Ailith blinks. "Forgive you?" she echoes. "Cousin, you have done nothing that would require forgiveness. Your passion is understood, and shared by most of our small House. I have been *concerned* for you, that is all. Our passion has led to our grave in more than one case, and I would not see it claim your life as well. The candle that burns at both ends dwindles quickly." She does however happily accept the hug, and returns it.
Ciara nods slightly before pulling away from their embrace. "Good.." is her first reply before the obvious signs of just what Ailith speaks of begin to show as she wobbles ever so slightly. One of the servants in the room rushing across the floor to gently hold her up.
"My Lady, are you alright?" asks the young servant girl.
"Aye Sarah, I am fine. Just, tired is all. My cousin and I have finished our conversation, please ready her a room with a bath, and food."
The servant looks slightly to Ailith first, as if to ask if Ailith thinks it's a good idea for anyone to leave Ciara alone. Though, this look does not persist as she pulls away, curtsies and shuffles off to see to her Countess's orders.
"So, a bath, some food, and a warm bed.." Ciara adds softly, "Sounds like a good thing for the both of us. Cousin, I bed you a goodnight.." she smiles warmly again, bows lightly, and then turns on heel to make her way to her chambers.
Ailith bows. "Good night, cousin," she echoes quietly. As Ciara turns away, she whispers something inaudible to the servant. And allows herself to be led to a spare room.